Coming in 2018
My walk with Jesus Christ began in college. In my early adult life, I was paralyzed by fear, insecurity, depression and spiraling down. At a very low point, my mother knew I needed more help than any person could give me. She read to me Matthew 11:28-30: “Come to me, all you who are weary and heavy burdened and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” This spoke deep to my heart. For so long, I felt no one could understand the torment and struggle I was in. But, for the first time in so long, I had hope. I had to know Jesus and that is where my journey began.
As I got to know Him through the Word of God (the Bible,) He spoke to me in every possible way. All that fear was replaced by His love just as He promises in 1 John 4:18: “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” The peace and joy I knew as a very young child returned. I could live again! And I never wanted to be apart from Christ. He meant everything to me.
I soon started thinking about what I would do after college. I moved to Los Angeles where I got a job as an NBC Page. I was also baptized that same year. I had some exciting things happen. A role on a primetime NBC special and some walk on parts on three soaps. I began to study at the Beverly Hills Playhouse and I received my Screen Actors Guild card. As things in the world opened up to me down there, as a new Christian I was not very strong. I had a difficult time navigating in the world and also walking with God. I was saved but I was not living in His power. I wasn’t totally looking to Him for my needs. As I went down that path and held less tightly to God, the peace I cherished started to disappear. Although opportunities were bright, the light in my life was dimming because Christ was taking a back seat. I was searching, but still not realizing what was missing in my life was complete surrender and dependence on God.
Not long after I moved back to Sacramento where I worked at KOVR-TV and KSTE radio as a writer and producer. I also worked in local theater and commercials. I still loved the Lord, but was not living only for Him. I still feared people and was looking to other things for my security and value. I knew deep in my heart this was not the abundant life Christ speaks of. I was on that sinking sand and wanted Christ, the solid Rock back. He is what I wanted more than anything else. I rededicated my life to Christ at a Billy Graham event in the mid 90’s. Not long after I met my husband Randy who was an answer to prayer. We share our faith together with our three children.
I had loved singing since I was a teenager. My parents both loved music and played the piano beautifully. I loved to sing along. Often big and operatic! But outside of the home, I had a fear of singing in public. My voice just kind of shut down. That’s what fear does. Shuts us down. My husband Randy often heard me sing at home and encouraged me to use my voice and later to play the piano. In around 2008, I prayed to God: “You have given me this voice, I want to use it for your glory, but you will have to help me.” And help me He did! He answered that prayer and I am so amazed and thankful for what God has done! I am no longer afraid! I can sing! He has opened doors for me to be a worship leader at several Northern California area churches as well as The Tapestry Network. And He has taken my love of writing and music and has given me the ability to write dozens of songs. All coming from this beautiful and amazing journey I have had with Him. And it is only because of Christ that I have just released my first album “Walking in the Spirit” on Creative Soul Records. All the songs come from a place of needing and seeking the Lord, spending time in His Word, trusting Him and living the abundant and victorious life only Christ gives.
I love to sing praise to God and bring others into that worship! I love Jesus Christ!